Things end but memories last forever

Everyone’s life changes at one point, so did mine. My life had been splendid. I had everything that I wanted and needed; an ecstatic family, mischievous friends and an excellent school for guiding me with my career. In short, my life was the definition of perfect. But it doesn’t last long, does it? One of my loved one died. This isn’t the first loss of one to death I am facing but this is the first time I am losing a loved one. The death of the loved one is rarely expected and never accepted. There were waves of emotions that hit me. I was dumbstruck to understand what they were saying. I felt like as if I was paralyzed. I can’t find the right word to express the pain I went through. When we lose someone we love, it distorts our peace and nothing seems right. There is a future that seems to have never existed and a past that we want to go back to, and we feel like we can’t be further from the present moment and reality. I couldn’t accept the fact the man who made the atmosphere cheerful just by his presence was lying lifeless. The mouth which never stopped blabbering all the foolhardy jokes wasn’t moving now. All I could do was nothing but cry. Everyone tried their best to console and cheer me up. I heard one of them saying, “Think about the memories you had with him and be happy about it”. This is one of the common thing I heard “be happy with the memories”. I really find it foolish and this is what I am going to write about. Why memories hurt? Personally, I feel like the memories are the constant reminder of what we lost. Memories destroy us and it’s too hard to accept the things that you had with your loved ones are now just a memory, not a usual happening. It shows you are no longer a person that you used to be. You lost something which you will never get again. Memories make us realize how incredible our past was. They say, “move on forget it”. It’s really easy to say, but there you can’t consign to oblivion the person who completed you. All you can do is to slowly learn to live without them, keeping them tucked safely in your heart. We gotta accept the life. Once the sun rises, it has to set down to keep the earth moving. Similarly if we are born, death occurs. For some, it happens soon or for some later. The person who loved you with his whole heart never wants to be the reason for your tears. Now, I won’t let the tears mar the smile he gave me so far. Whenever I miss him, I look at the stars and it tells “He will never leave me”. Now who is the he that I have been talking about? My soulmate? My best friend? Nah, he was a combination of all.